Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 8:26 PM :D
Intense. . .? YOU ARE THE SWEETEST
Hmm I did th stupidest thing in th book of th most stupiedest thing I ever done
I stupidly go put an origami of a cat and a pig tgt as my dp
And gt my beloved duck angry. . .
And he said alot of harsh words and
told me to stead dat pig instead T_T
I cant blame him dat he felt dat wayy
cuz I totally didnt considered his feelings
Was totally selfish of me T___T and I apologise deeply
And he treated me liek a fren . . . and it hurt me so much
I guess I gt wad I deserve huh . . . .
I cried th whole nite after my 10pm shift
And cudnt slp worst thing waz
I nid to get up for morning shift th next day
I kept emo these past few days
I juz cudnt stand him treating me so coldly
cuz th duckie I knew was warm and gentle , makes me laugh
But nw I feel kinda lost and alone fer a few days. . .
Trying to pull myself tgt . . .
He told me I didnt luv him as much I luved Donald
And when I thot abt it I realised mayb I do or mayb even more and
I m vy dependant on duckie and I guess I took advantage dat . . .
Find myself crying everynite and stress up abt everyting little ting
And my nitemare gt more " wilder "
Gt no1 to turn too I shud've turned to mei but
I predict her ans will b smthg liek " Dun care him la " or smthg
but another reason was idw to disturb mei cuz she having exams
is stressing enuff fer her le . . .
And I cant juz dun care him -.-"
He's impt to me , I wanna tc of him and
b thr fer him liek he did fer me and regret leaving =\
Curiosity reli kills th cat
Anyway pig bdae coming soon dat brat wans a prezzie -.-
Bo liann .
Wish I can turn back time )):
Juz w8ing fer another fight =\
Serious my nitemare was liek
I dream I waz falling frm th sky and into th ocean wit no land
swimming to nowhere
Another one was I dreamt I can chg into a guy && gur ._."
dhat was a weird 1 rahhs x.x
Thrs another I tio chased by dogs D:
But th worst was. . .
Seeing duckie in th arms of another
I cudnt take it and drowned myself and woke up T_T
O yea I gt a call saying I gt shortlisted fer th nurse job :DD
I went fer th interview and th person waz so scary D:
Hope I get it ba ^^ I reli wan a full time job :3
Anyways I went out wit duckie to look fer my pendant
Actually vy happy lo get to c him again ><
Weird hair :x but ): at 1st he was so cold
Liek I nv meet him b4 T_T
B4 after tok tok and dinner , feels less colder
It's vy hard luhhs to describe th feeling
I holding back nt to cry
I liek gt so many thing to tell him but dun dare ):
I was so glad he sent me hm :)))
But wen reach hm idw him to leave )):
And I wish I cud stay wit him longer
But 11pm lei ltr he cannt catch last train x.x
Anyways nvm ba (: If I miss him I'll juz read his old sms
or liek he said miss him juz hug pedo ^^
Speaking of pedo :D
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