Monday, December 7, 2009 @ 8:07 AM :D
It ended on 06.12.09? YOU ARE THE SWEETEST
I m back ~ and at work x.x !
Eu noe hw torturing it is at home with no comp x.x
O yea time to update :
1stly ~ !
I wud like to thank Mr-I-ve-Juz-Reborned-My-Hair LOL
( name shall b nt known LOL Mr Unknown :x)
fer taking me out go lan last Sat :x
lol failed headset and laggy comp D: hw to play audi
(summore nid to patch )
BUT L4D is awesomeee ;luv >< ~
next time bring me go again pwleasseeee ~
( but no laggy comp tyvm :x )
lol o yea den I fell sick :D
bcuz Mr Unknown neh hold th umbrella properly :x
cuz he wan protect his hair oni LOL
anywayys thanks fer cheering me up :)
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andd. . . 2nd was ytd update
wen I meet ducky. . .
we'r over na0 ( I tink =\ )
yea so I met him ytd. . .
for th 1st time in 6months
I was so afraid to talk to him. . .
Anywayys he broke up due to family problems >.>
and say I m always siding mei wich is tru . . .
wich. . he didnt told me so I didnt n0e . . .
say he dun wanna fite. . but at least I understand
hw he feels ma. . . ugh useless to talk abt it na0
Anyways I cant believe I m so weak. . .
In my head is liek
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" I ' m nt gonna cry "
" I ' m nt gonna cry "
" I ' m nt gonna cry "
" I ' m nt gonna cry "
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In end I brust out crying in front of him
so embrassing -.- I dun like crying in front of ppl
I wanted to hear him say dhat he dun luv me anymore
so dhat I wun hav false hope and
keep lying to myself dhat he's coming back
den he said we still can b friends
yea friends. . .
pfffttt. . . -rolls eyes- >.>
kayy lo friends it is. . .
at least nw I keep telling mself
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" We'r juz friends nth more den dat. . . "
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so I asked him if he oni say dat he luv me a as fren
he said no ._.
so. . . I was tinking he dun luv me as a fren
and he wun say dat he dun luv me
and we've broken up. . .
so. . . wad m I to u ?
( wich he gav a weird ans tru sms ;eeks )
I wish time wud go slower
but he haz to go ;sigh
I gave him my most precious necklace
wich I hav nv taken off
bcuz it was given by my bestie wen I left poly
wich I swear nt in to take off until I die or
if th necklace is too small for my neck x.x
So yea I died in a way wich is whyye I gav it to him
and hopefully he doesnt forget me
Feel so empty nw. . .
But juz in case he wish to luv again
I pray he finds sumone better dhen me. . .
His next gf is definitely will b
th most luckiest gurl to hav him. . .
Anywayys. . . he's nt quitting CAD and nt brking cpl
so yea. . . dun bully my -cough- fren yea >.>
anyywayys ppl dun worry abt me
I'll b okay. . . in a few days/weeks time :)
Love - I haz giv up on itTragedy will always tio tragedies ~
Whyye do I keep lying to myself . . . Alt + F4 if u cant stand mushyy stuffDear, I fear we're facing a problem
You love me no longer, I know
And maybe there is nothing that I can do
To make you do
Mama tells me I shouldn't bother
That I ought to stick to another man
A man that surely deserves me
But I think you do ~
So I cry, I pray and I beg
Love me love me, say that you love me
Fool me fool me, go on and fool me
Love me love me, pretend that you love me
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me
So I cry, I pray and I beg
Love me love me, say that you love me
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me
I can't care 'bout anything but you
Lately I have desperately pondered,
Spent my nights awake and I wonder
What I could have done in another way
To make you stay
Reason will not lead to solution
I will end up lost in confusion
I don't care if you really care
As long as you don't go . . .
So I cry, I pray and I beg
Love me love me, sayyyy that you love me
Leave me leave me, just say that you need me
I can't care 'bout anything . . . but you ~
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Lovefool ( Olivia Ong cover is lurve )
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I shud've . . .
looked longer in ur eyes ,
gave u more hugs and kisses ,
held ur hand longer ,
told u dhat u were always on my mind
told u hw much u meant to me .
Mostly. . . I wished I cud ' ve told u to stay. . .
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Sorry fer fighting with euu ,
fer siding mei all th time ,
neglecting eu ,
bullying eu ,
didnt lurve eu enuff
nt being thr fer eu .
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Thank you fer luving me ,
caring fer me ,
fer reviving
making me smile ,
making me laff ,
giving me a chance to luv euu ,
given me everyting ,
fer tis past 6 months .
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But eu'r a coward to luv
anyywayys eu can forget my birthday na0 :)
and I can delete th event on 24.12.09 frm my calendar
it aint impt anymore . . .
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Time to move on with life and change myself
Neither friend or foe
But cant seem to let chu go. . .
Wad will happen happen to our kitty ~ ?
Stay tune :3
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